Thank You, Lord

"Come and listen, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me." Psalm 66:16 (NIV)

Just last night, I prayed again that I wanted to really change for the better. You see, I am just like any other man, sinful in nature. I tend to grudge and loathe people who had hurt me. I don't want to forgive and give second chances to them. But as I prayed yesterday, one thing had cleared out on me. I wouldn't be able to really follow God and glorify Him unless I learn to forgive and let go of the grudge and the past. So, I made a promise. I would forgive those people who had hurt me, may it be intentional or not. And, as I proceed to do just that, I would continue to grow in Him and learn His ways. I may stumble and screw up later, but that won't stop me from living a life pleasing to Him. I promised to bring joy to Him and continue to glorify His name. So, even if I had been dormant for a year, that won't even stop me. I would do everything to be in tune with God's thoughts for me.
Being a college student made me distant from Him. I tend to worry about how I would manage my allowance, my job and my time in studying. I worried yet I wasn't doing anything about the situation. I just whined about it and then proceeded with going out with the people I thought were real friends. I don't tend to judge and blame them but being with more people who aren't really helping in my spiritual life just drains the energy out of me making me unproductive all throughout the day. Then days become weeks, months become a year and here I am, stagnant and unproductive.
So, last night, I told to myself, i would become unproductive and I would learn His ways and glrofiy HIs name.
Lately, I was so attached to the thought of having someone I would love and would love me back. I was yearning for a love from a person I thought was the right one. Well, I couldn't really know if he is the right one. But what had happened during the past weeks proved him not worthy of my love. But, things had already happened. We became close, more closer than friends. I hoped for love and even before commitment, a heartbreak had pierced my heart and crunched it. I was hurt even before love was there. I don't know what to do. My life then seemed to go nowhere. I don't have the strength to get up every morning and bring myself to school. Things had been left unattended and unfinished. I was in a loop once more. And if I won't do anything about it soon, I would again fail and become more miserable than I am now. I don't want to have any regrets anymore. I am still lost and finding my way to the right path.
But as I try to find it, I will do everything not to overlook what God had done for me even if I was not on His side. I will try to remember everything He had done just to bring me back into His loving embrace and security.
Love from a person who would be with me for the rest of my human life can wait. But the love from God can't wait. It needs to be nourished, cared for and returned to Him. So, as I continue my day, I  would be a living joy in Him. I would bring a smile in His face and would do the most powerful prayer He wanted to receive, "Thank you, Lord."
Why that? Simply because, even if I had been into a heartache and my life seemed to have no direction, He is still there for me just waiting for my return. He still love me no less than the very first moment I was cast in this world. He never ceased to bring me love and care. I just didn't noticed that. I was so focused with the unnecessary details.
So, starting now, I would try to see the bigger picture and say thank you to whatever the situation may be. For God, didn't allowed sufferings and heartaches for nothing. He wants us to grow through it and strengthen our faith and trust in Him. Failures may strike on us, but He promised to make a way out of it. He won't leave us hanging. He is always there to help us.
So thank you Lord for all that you have showed me and done for me.