It's already late in here to post a father's day dedication. But still, I would want to post this. The truth is, I miss my dad so much! I miss him that I want to cry out and shout to the world how I miss him. It hurts me thinking that there is a great wall being built between us because I chose to follow God. But then again, I still love my dad despite of the situation. I guess this is one trial that I have to pass to prove how sincere I am in following God.
Below is a little letter to my dad. I know he would never be able to read this, but I don't care. I just have to do this or else I'll really burst out (I'm just not good in handling emotions :/ ).
Dad,
Thank you for giving life to me. Thank you that you gave me the chance to experience life here on earth. Thank you for all the hardships you have to go through just to send me to school and just to give me a wonderful life. Thank you for the wonderful moments we had shared together. Thank you for believing in me and being my No. 1 fan.
I know that we are not in good terms all the times, but I want you to know that I love you so much. I take pride in being your child. I used to do things to make you proud of me and I guess I still do.
I'm sorry that I couldn't give you all you wish for me. I'm sorry that at times I couldn't meet your expectations, but I want you to know that I tried my best so that you could be proud of me. I'm sorry that I had stumbled so many times and gave shame to you. I'm sorry that I couldn't be the best kid you want me to be.
Happy father's day dad!
I love you dad and I miss you so much!
Your daughter,
Jan
P.S. I'll always be waiting for the day that you'll accept me for who I am and for what I believe in.
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